Fact: I have never worn a two piece bikini in my life - and a couple of days ago, I purchased not one but 2 two piece bikinis.
I have always been insecured about my body, especially the chest area. I wasn’t blessed with big boobs and unfortunately for me, I’ll probably stay an A cup forever (unless of course I get pregnant or get a boob job). There is nothing worse than being teased for having an “undeveloped breasts” (for skinny women) but I’ve heard it all, from “mosquito bites” to “ironing board” to whatever boobless name calling you can think of. I tried not to let it affect me but sometimes I can’t help but get hurt. Some of you do a great job of making me feel less of a woman for not having breasts that you men can motorboat, jiggle and fondle. Reality check: women are skinny and flat too.
I’m not about to give bullshit statements such as “I have learnt to accept my flaws” that sounds like some Miss Universe answer. Fuck that because I know I will continuously wish that I had a bigger, bouncier and jigglier boobs. What I do know and will say is that over time, I have learnt to appreciate my assets instead of concentrating and killing myself over my so called “flaws”.
So, a couple of months ago I decided to improve myself mentally and physically. I have included exercise in my schedule and I am SLOWLY changing my diet. I want a better me and I am determined to maintain this type of mindset/lifestyle. This summer, I am going to get over my insecurity and rock this bikini like they do in baywatch - minus the slow mo run.
This is fantastic and a very real talk! :D You don’t have to go from doubt to 100% self-love in a matter of a day. It’s all about learning to appreciate yourself slowly!